Thursday, April 22, 2010 4:26 AM
Today's Thusday , one week is gna past soon .
I hate the weekends :(
Spending time in sch is so much better .
Exams coming , what the hellaaaa !
Summary of this week ~
It seems like this week zooooomed pretty fast .
Booooomz .
Suckishh , I wish time would slow down a little .
Well anws , I guess it's due to the roller coasterly ride .
At home , my time is wasted on hell lots of lectures from different people ._.
In school , my time is well spent with studying , laughing , smiling , all those happy thoughts .
I'm rather lazy to elaborate on this week .
I don't remember much also so no point .
Heehee .
Next ,
F**********youuu Nicoleeee .
Why the hell can't you just get your freaking butt off the computer , off any stupid thing and just do the fucking homework ?
And concentrate on your schoolwork ?
You're jus soooooooooo stupiddddddd .
& then you complain that you fail your tests and all .
You deserve it for goodness sake .
You should just shut your gaps and do it .
Grrrrrrrrr , you're really getting on my nerves .
I SWEAR MAN ! -.-
Hohoho , merry christmas .
But that really won't help .
My attitude sucks .
The more I settle into this P6 routine , the more slackish I get .
What the hell is my problem .
Sick & tired of this man .
Making goals that are pretty much realistic & then not moving an inch to work for it .
It's no wonder I'm stupid .
I hate me , for fuck's sake .
They say wake up , I did .
But it's of no use .
They say buck up , I tried .
But I give up .
Might as well just spend my time at school rotting with friends .
& forget abt studies .
TOTALLY!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay , skip abt the retarded sub .
Can't help it .
I hate myself .
& I'm not doing anything about it .
._.
Everyone's trying to help me , but I don't even help myself .
What's the point man ?
Idk laaaah .
I don't how/what to motivate me to work hard .
Everyone says I've got the potential & I know that .
But it seems like I'm wasting all of it .
After failing tests after tests , I've actually gotten used to it .
Now , I'm not afraid of failing ,
& I lied to myself since the beginning, I'll never be at the top .
(John said I have to lie to myself :D)
Now , it's become reality .
I really can't reach the top at all .
This feeling sucks , I know that .
I pray hard..
I suck at every single thing .
I hate this feeling .
TOTALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! D:
Well, I rly have to talk about stuffs other than the above mentioned stuffs .
:B
K , ytd was NAPFA , statics stations .
Now my whole body rots .
I SWEAR , ROTS .
Leg rots , everywhere!!!!!!!!!!!
Grr .
Idk how to run 1.6 tml .
Can I don't ?
D:
End here .
Byeeeee :D
P/S: Sry for any vulgarities u see here :D
Labels: Chapter One
Love, Nicole L. Eusebio Yoseop.
♥
